DIARY ENTRIES:
July 26 – Della quit and moved out, wonder if it was
something I said. Kids cheered as she
drove off, house parents didn’t even say so-long. Saw Sonny-the-fag walking on the highway,
picked him up and took him to my apartment.
Amazing what a boy will do to keep from being sent back to a group home.
July 27 – Sara called, said didn’t need me anymore. What?
Told me to call social worker, Martha, then hung up. Bitch!
Wonder who finked on me? Called
on ad about working with disabled and retards, set up interview for 29th.
July 28 – Henry popped in, I asked about how much truth to
Ten Commandments? Said God never gave
such commandments to live by. Said
organized religion made those up to further their control over the poor and
ignorant masses. Damn religious
fanatics.
July 29 – Interview, job pays $6.80 an hour, plus .20
cents a mile. Called In-Home Trainer for
five male clients. Start August 1st. Received letter from social worker, said
terminated for letting ward-of-court who was unlicensed drive passenger
van. Said I was negligent in fulfilling
my duties. I hope the motherfucking
juvenile delinquents burn the group home down!
“Simon, July the twenty-sixth, you found Sonny
walking along the highway and picked him up.
You took him to your apartment, I take it from the way you worded the
entry, you sexually abused him?”
“No, he said he’d do sexual favors for me if I
didn’t make him go back to the group home,” I said lying with a neutral
expression on my face.
“Did Sonny perform oral sex on you?” Doctor Lerner continued.
A surprised look came over my face as I answered, “Never.”
“Did you perform oral sex on Sonny?”
Startled, I answered, “I’m not a fag!”
“So, you had anal sex, but no oral sex, is that correct?”
“That’s right,” I shot back.
“Simon, what would your definition of a homosexual be?”
“Any man who sucks dick.”
“You wouldn’t consider anal sex with a man to be a homosexual
act?” She persisted.
“No, because you can screw a woman in the butt
and it doesn’t make you a fag.” I felt vindicated, at least in my own mind.
