Chapter Twenty Three
I received a lot of questions from my editor. She told me that I left a lot of questions unanswered. My excuse was that I had a tendency to go off on tangents.
Well you should have told her that you have a tendency to expand on subjects. That is our very nature you know?
Wish I would have thought of that then! Anyhow, it does seem like the book is missing something.
An ending perhaps?
I believe so.
So what say we finish up by answering some of the readers’ questions then.
Like what?
What are you doing now? Has your life changed at all? Have you stopped taking OTC drugs? They wanna know. Let’s give it to ‘em!
Why is it that my personal life is so important to the masses? Can’t I have a Little privacy here? Must I be the spitting image of YOU all the time?! This is not easy work! If I had my way about it, I would have you speed up this whole process because I feel as if I am doing all the legwork here!
You’re dodging the question.
No. I am telling you how it is. If you want to know, NO! My life hasn’t changed a bit. Did you really think it would have? I still let people talk down to me, I still drink and smoke, I still doubt myself, and I still sleep 60 percent of the day away! My day is fine until I have to get out of bed! So why do you get out of bed?
I have to.
Why?
I have obligations.
Why?
People count on me.
Why?
Because. They are stuck in hard times.
Why?
I don’t know! Because they are! Stop torturing me here! Please.
Why?
Because I can’t take it! I just do what I do and that’s it.
Okay. I will give you a break. Instead of asking you questions I will give you answers.
That’s more like it. So why do I get out of bed?
Just because.
Because why?
Just because.
Because why?
Just because.
Are you kidding me?! Stop acting like a child!
Children and old fools do speak the truth, ya know?
Yeah, yeah. Here we are arriving full circle.
That is what life does you know, comes back around full circle. Just remember, when you get out of bed in the morning try and just, be the cause.
Be the cause? Of what? Whatever seems to be happening?
Yes. When you wake up on the wrong side of the bed, who do you think caused your bad day?
….. Me?
Of course! Ever notice how if the first thing you do in the morning is extra special and nice, that day is extra good? On the contrary, if you step out of bed onto a roller skate, ever notice how the whole day snowballs into catastrophe?
Yeah. I suppose I do.
It’s all in your mind.
Then why is it so hard to change your mind about the day you’re having and get it back on the right track?
Why is it?
I’m asking you.
And I am asking you. It really is not that hard for everyone you know?
So you are telling me this is my problem alone?
Not only yours, there are others. I just want you to start working on thinking for yourself. It is a well known fact, “Knowledge unearned, will go unheeded.”
In that case, I will have a go at it.
Good.
I suppose my day is always so busy. I am always in a rush to move on to whatever is next I don’t really take the time to stop and rethink my awareness.
And if you did stop, and breathe, you believe you could change the outcome of a day going bad?
I think so. I could probably mustar up something in my imagination to spin the day in a different direction.
The imagination is a very powerful tool.
Oh, believe me, I know. I use to have this buddy I shared my barracks with in seal training who, every time he farted, he’d hop off his bunk and say, with a thick northern accent, “Whew! That stinks.” His face would wrinkle into a grimacing, pungent look. And I could swear I SAW the fart and how bad it stunk, even if it didn’t smell at all!
You never fail to make me laugh. I try.