Sunday morning, my 54th birthday 12/18/05 Dear LORD,
I am born today.
I am Yours today.
Love,
S.
later that day, (as I was praying on a mountain overlooking the area where I would be passing out Christian tracts and talking with people
one to one about the Gospel)Dear S.,
Look down from this mountain
at the small area you will influence today. I will greatly multiply this small thing that you do. Love,
God
Dear LORD,
Thank You! What a wonderful birthday present!
If I were to remain silent now,
I know that the very stones would cry out.
My joy is complete.
I will not worry about what to say,
for You will put the words in my mouth.
Thank You for this!
Speak to me. Speak through me LORD,
for Your servant is listening. How beautiful is Your voice to me! I love You Jesus!
Tuesday morning 12/20/05
Dear LORD,
I call Your name, and You hear me;
and with Your voice, You answer me.
Hallelujah! Praise Your Name! Love,
S.
Sunday, midnight 12/25/05 Dear LORD,
Its been so busy that I miss You, in the midst of You.
Happy Birthday Jesus!
Love,
S.
Dear S., I am giving you temporal tastes of eternal delights, but dont get caught up in the preview.
I show you faded photographs …
still pictures of people,
but dont get caught up in the pictures.
I am in you.
I am with you.
I am loving you
through eternal reality.
Love,
God
Monday morning, 12/26/05 late that night
Dear LORD,
Thank You for Alzheimers disease. It is helping my
parents forget that they dont believe in You. Thank You even for the pain that my mother felt in her knee following surgery, so that she allowed me to lay hands on her knee, and pray for healing. Thank You for infusing her knee with soothing warmth under my hand. Thank You for my father being able to see beyond worldly reality, and asking me “Whats that light under your hand?” Thank You for speaking the Gospel clearly through me in a way that
prompted my mother to forget her atheism and say “Well, I suppose everybody believes in something greater than
themselves.”
Thank You for Your presence …
not the feeling of Your presence,
but the reality of You,
here, with us.
I am in love with You.
S.
Wednesday night, 12/28/05 Dear LORD,
Show me what You want me to see, do, and be.
I really want to do Your will.
Doing my own stuff seems so empty in comparison. Fill me tonight, LORD. Ready me for the day ahead … and if its okay with You, I want to get closer to You. Im not asking for feelings or sensations.
I have to admit that I desire those things,
but I dont want to stop there.
I want to lose myself, and find myself in You.
I am in love with You.
S.
Saturday night 12/31/05
Dear LORD,
The old year is ending and the new year beginning. I am so grateful to have You in my life! Truly, I am in You, as You are in me, as You are in the Father … and nothing can separate me from the love that is in You, Christ Jesus, my Savior! My flawed humanity, my pride, my resentment, my lack if love, my unbelief, my failure… Nothing can separate me from Your love, because Your love is stronger than death.
Love,
S.
P.S. Thank You for asking me to pray for the rain, then kissing my cheeks with it until everyone had a chance to get to a dry place before the downpour.
S.
Monday morning 01/02/06 Dear LORD,
When Im asleep, You sing to me,
love songs from eternity.
No longer playing hide and seek,
I am exposed without beliefs.
I cannot hide my face from You in prayer.
S.
S.,
Do not seek Me in high places.
Its in the valley of the shadow of death that I restore your soul.
Your Creator
Dear LORD,
I try and fail and try again to be holy and each failure brings with it renewed awe and humility.
Thank You for working in me. Monday morning, 01/09/06
I saw two images of You in my dreams last night:
A single red rose on a page, not painted by me. I added the thorns to make it realistic.
A dark horse cries out from the half open door of a stall in a barn that is burning at daybreak.
Thank You for dying for me on the cross. Love,
S.
Wednesday morning, 01/11/06
Dear LORD,
Thank You for the dream last night that revealed my vanity, pride, and self-centeredness. It helped me to see the cost of these things. Help me, today, to hold fast to You, and not let myself be sold out to anything else. Help me to close any access the enemy has to steal the Gospel from me, to keep me from walking in it and proclaiming it. Love,
S.
Thursday morning 01/12/06
Dear LORD,
Hold me to You. I do not have the strength to hold onto You. I am turning over my worship to You because I do not have the holiness to worship You rightly. Dear S.,
You dont have to hold onto Me. I am holding on to you. Rest in Me. The house built on the Rock has its foundation sunk into the Rock. The Rock surrounds the foundation. Press deeper into Me. Be a low profile house with one story … the Gospel.
Love,
Jesus
Sunday morning, 01/15/06
Dear LORD,
You are the deepest desire of my heart. This is not just a pretty saying. This is my prayer, my cry for help to You, the One who saves me from this body of death.
Love,
S.
Thursday morning 01/19/06
Dear Jesus,
I had a nightmare that the Church wanted to take the book of Revelation out of the Bible, and affirmed that the whole second half of the Bible was not as important as the first half. They wanted to take You out of the Bible, and reduce it to a book of rules. It was a relief to wake up.
Love,
S.
Friday evening, 01/20/06
Dear Jesus,
K. said she saw You in me today. I am in awe of You! I know that the fact that You would shine through me does not say anything about me, because I know the darkness that is in me … but it says a whole lot about You. Your light overcomes the darkest night. I love You Jesus!
Dear LORD,
I dreamed that I tried to contact my parents by cell phone, but had a bad connection. Then my sister came on the line and blasted me for having faith in You. What are You trying to tell me? How am I supposed to bring my sister to You? Do You want me to keep trying, or are You saying that shes a lost cause?
Love,
S.
Dear S.,
I dont believe in lost causes. Invite her to come to the water. Love,
God