When my website was read by the religious council here in Malaysia, someone dared to come forward to threaten me via email, expressed their dissatisfaction with my writing. Repeated questions were thrown at me.
They didn’t want me to write this book. They threatened to arrest me if they found this book being distributed. Because I did not follow their Islamic shari'a and my knowledge were different from them?
Isn't the Knowledge of God vast and they are not shallow!
I had a dream in February 2014, that had convinced me of my path was indeed a straight path and I must uphold it tight.
I have Faith in God.
Ignored those meaningless threats and hanged in there.
I was in a village, in a dream it looked like a place where people visited for prayers, like a holy place. There was a sharia policeman looking for me in the village. Maybe the controversial over the website ‘mimpiku’, they wanted to investigate me further.
What I felt on the Earth was what I felt in the Unseen.
I saw the policeman approached a woman. The police had seen my car there but went to ask about me from the woman whom I did not know before. She looked like a stranger to me. She happened to be there in the village at the time.
So I heard their conversations.
‘O Solehah, do you know Ibunda? (the police call my actual name here).
Solehah replied, ‘I Know. I always saw her here, coming to this village '.
What the woman was trying to do? A confession to a police?
Acknowledged me and my presence?
How can she tells about my existence without knowing me?
Who was this Solehah by the way?
I didn’t know this woman but she knew me.
When I woke up, I browsed through the meaning of this dream.
I'm sure this woman named ‘solehah’ is not anyone else but she is ‘the title’. Solehah in malay means ‘the pious’.
That ‘solehah’ is a living virtue. She is a ‘being’, a pious in the form of a woman. Solehah knew my whereabouts, and it was the proof that Solehah knew me well.
Thank you Allah.
I never thought about the owner of this pious name was actually a ‘living being’.
Many women uses the word ‘solehah’ and many women desire to be ‘solehah’. Sadly Solehah cannot be owned.
Because SOLEHAH is a living virtue who knows about you inside out.
How could you use the title of solehah on yourself while the real solehah did not recognize you? You were only good at deceiving people with false piety that you created upon yourself.
Many people described ‘solehah’ or ‘soleh’ with an outward clothing, the pious look with full hijab veil and a long robe. But solehah/soleh is much hidden from the external view.
Solehah did not accept your instructions and she/he did not lie about your true self. Solehah knew her master very well if you are the owner of solehah title.
When I saw my journey lately, my faith in God grew stronger. The keyword SOLEHAH in this dream is very important to describe about someone pious. I received an extraordinary knowledge about pious and virtue.
O Allah I prayed that SOLEHAH will be in me, sealed in me wherever I go in the hereafter.
"Do not drive away those who call on their Lord morning and evening, they expect His pleasure, you do not bear the slightest responsibility for their actions and they do not bear the slightest responsibility for your actions" -al an'am.