So I’ve been noticing that he’s using subliminal messages like those recordings people listen to in order to influence their thinking.
I’m lying in the living room and something smells. He was running around in here a couple weeks ago. Isa asks me if I smell it. I say yeah.
And HE wouldn't lie to me. He really is castrated. It’s fake. God is not negligent.
Back in the computer lab. Same man.
He's quiet for at least an hour then all I hear - same as before - is him saying, “Jesus Christ! Goddamnit! Shit!”
Keep in mind that, he’s loud and vulgar on a college campus in a comp lab.
Seems like he really, really has a problem with Jesus. I don’t know what happened between them but it’s not healthy. The devil asks me questions about Him, always comments about Him – like he makes me wonder if he wants to be closer with Him (wink). He admires Him – no, fixates on Him. But it’s kinda weird…you know, when you hate someone you call them names, threaten. He did call Him a “motherfucker” to me once. I don’t know. It raises my brow. God keeps saying its jealousy.
I must say that I expected more from “The Devil”. Not this. There’s sex and blasphemy. Where’s the murder and mayhem? I mean, I know God is watching over me, but – ok. I know he can't hurt me, but if there’s sexual images why not an image of me getting my head blown off? The sex to violence ratio has been 80/20 with sex being pervertedly prevalent. Isa says he does it because it (sex stuff) hurts me.
But what I can handle does comes through.
Give me a car blowing up across from my house, a person getting hit by a car mere seconds before I step out of the way – something. A month ago the sex stuff bothered me but a month later it’s just mostly irritating. He's very childish to me. I just expected more – more intellect, more…cleverness.
I mean, how old is he? Trickery should not be wholly relied on or necessary at that age. I know God again is helping me, but with what is allowed to happen, I still think there should be more than sex. Plus, he’s too in a rush, on me too hard, dogging my steps. Even with physical contact restricted…obviously he’s limited – I know he asked for time with me in hell without God as just another example of what I'm speaking of. What sense would that make?
He slams stuff, is agitated, arrogant, illogical. Where does this big bad rep come from? If it were me, I would watch a body and see what makes them tick. If you're consistently nice, a person feels safe and liked and will usually open up and trust, especially when they aren’t expecting to be betrayed in the end. I would've started there.
I’ve been celibate for a long time so I thought that maybe he thought the sex stuff would entice me even though he’s disgusting. He's boring. I have to get an eyeball on who actually enjoys his company.
They don’t like it when I laugh because of him.
Telling me don’t talk to him.