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more … You end up still in pain, just feeding a habit. With its low IQ and lack of sophistication, the lizard brain just doesn’t get it. It keeps on “chasing the dragon,” trying to recapture the ecstatic initial experience with a substance or behavior, but the first time does not return for a repeat performance.
A young man whose first night of drinking awoke an inner voice that said, “This is who we are.” He came to feel that his alcoholism was like another sentient being that shared his body. Hodgkin’s (who quit nicotine along with alcohol) mentions the same phenomenon, a voice that says things like “Why don’t we sneak outside and smoke a quick one?”
Sometimes, it is almost like we are two people, a split personality … sometimes, what the higher brain thinks is the opposite of what the lower brain thinks … I developed the
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