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CHAPTER 5: THE JANUARY CHAPTER

JANUARY 6

YOU:

YOU TOLD ME IN THE HALL JUST NOW THAT YOU

HAD A GREAT NEW YEAR'S DAY AND THEN YOU

FLASHED ME A PICTURE OF A PICTURE PROVING

THAT YOU WON. WHAT THE HECK IS UP WITH

THAT? I HAD A PICTURE OF ONE OF THE MOST

EXPENSIVE SPORTS CARS IN THE WORLD AND

YOU SMOKE ME WITH A PICTURE OF A PICTURE.

WHO IN THEIR RIGHT MIND GIVES AS A GIFT A

MILLION DOLLAR PICASSO? NOBODY DOES THAT!

THAT’S NOT A GIFT! THAT’S AN INVESTMENT.

I CAN’T BELIEVE YOU WON. THAT’S SO . . .

IT’S SO . . . WELL, IT’S JUST RUDE! (AND I’M NOT

A SORE LOSER. I’M A POOR LOSER. THERE’S A

DIFFERENCE AND YOUR PICTURE PROVES IT. YOU

SHOULD PITY ME. EVEN IF MY DAD EARNS MORE

THAN YOURS, I’M THE ONE THAT HAS TO COUGH

UP THE COOKIES . . . WAIT. . . THAT WAS A BAD

CHOICE OF WORDS.)

SMOKED BY A PICTURE OF A PICTURE.

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UNBELIEVABLE!

WELL, I CAN’T SPEAK FOR YOU BUT I’M READY TO

TALK ABOUT SOMETHING ELSE.

AND, NO, I’M GOING TO SKIP RIGHT OVER THE

FACT THAT I’M THE ONLY ONE OF THE TWO OF US

THAT ACTUALLY HAD THEIR PICTURE TAKEN WITH

SANTA. I MADE A COMPLETE FOOL OF MYSELF

WHILE YOU DIDN’T PARTICIPATE IN THE CLEARLY

OPTIONAL CHOICE OF HAVING YOUR PICTURE

TAKEN WITH SANTA.

AND, BY THE WAY, I FIND IT VERY DIFFICULT TO

BELIEVE THAT FOR AN ENTIRE TWO WEEKS YOU

NEVER CAME ACROSS A SINGLE SANTA CLAUS

WHILE YOU WERE OUT SHOPPING WITH YOUR

FAMILY. OF COURSE, I ALSO REALIZE THAT YOU

NEVER ACTUALLY DENIED THAT YOU EVER SAW AN

UNIDENTIFIED SANTA OBJECT IN THE MALL. I JUST

FEEL LIKE BEING OVERLY DRAMATIC FOR

WHATEVER REASON WITH ALL OF THIS.

AT LEAST YOU CHECKED OUT SOME PERFUME

AND COLOGNE AND I DID TOO. IN FACT, THAT

WAS ONE OF MY FAVORITE THINGS TO DO OVER

THE BREAK. AND IF YOU HEAR THAT S. B. WAS

ALSO AT THE MALL WHEN I WAS, IN FACT, AT THE

SAME PERFUME COUNTER AS I WAS, YES, IT’S

TRUE THAT SHE TOOK SOME COLOGNE AND

SPLASHED IT ON ME AND PROCEEDED TO

“SAMPLE” IT ON MY NECK. BUT JUST KNOW THAT

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I TOOK NO REAL PLEASURE IN THAT EXPERIENCE.

IT’S ACTUALLY KIND OF HARD TO ENJOY WHEN

YOUR PARENTS WALK UP TO YOU

INTERRUPTING A FLIRTATIOUS FEMALE THAT’S

SNIFFING YOUR NECK WHILE SHE'S SAYING LOUD

ENOUGH FOR PRETTY MUCH ANYONE NEAR TO

HEAR, “ANYTIME YOU WANT . . . I CAN MAKE YOU

HAPPY. THERE’S NOTHING I WON’T DO.”

(AS I RECALL, HER MOVES WERE INTERRUPTED BY

MY FATHER’S INCREDIBLY LOUD “EXCUSE ME! BUT

WHO THE HELL ARE YOU AND WHAT ARE YOU

DOING TO MY SON?!” I’M CHUCKLING NOW

RECALLING IT BECAUSE YOU SHOULD’VE SEEN MY

DAD’S FACE. YOU WOULD’VE THOUGHT SHE WAS

GIVING ME LEPROSY OR SOMETHING. IT WAS

CLASSIC!)

BUT DESPITE WHAT SHOULD HAVE BEEN A

RATHER EMBARRASSING MOMENT FOR HER WITH

ME IN THE MALL, I’M CONFIDENT THAT THAT

EXPERIENCE WON’T STOP HER FROM DOING HER

USUAL STOP BY TO RUN HER FINGERS THROUGH

MY HAIR SOMETIME TODAY IN THE HALL. SHE’S

APPARENTLY INCORRIGIBLE IN HER FLIRTATIOUS

WAYS.

SO WORD TO THE WISE, IF YOU HEAR ANY

RUMORS ABOUT SHE AND I FROM OVER THE

BREAK, THEY’RE JUST RUMORS AND NOTHING

MORE. THERE’S NOTHING BETWEEN US. THERE

NEVER HAS BEEN AND THERE NEVER WILL BE.

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SHE’S NOT EXACTLY MY TYPE.

IN FACT, JUST BEFORE THE CHRISTMAS BREAK,

SOME GUYS IN THE LOCKER ROOM AFTER GYM

CLASS WERE TEASING ME THAT I’M PAST DUE

FOR LOSING MY VIRGINITY AND THAT THEY HAD

THE “PERFECT” CANDIDATE TO AID ME IN THAT

“LUST WORTHY” ENDEAVOR. YOU COULD TAKE A

GUESS AT WHO THEY CHOSE FOR ME BUT I’LL

JUST SPARE YOU THE SUSPENSE AND TELL YOU

THEY WERE RECOMMENDING S. B..

SO I ASKED THEM. I SAID, “OKAY. . . SO WHAT IF

I FOLLOW YOUR FOOL’S PLAN? WHAT NEXT?

WHERE WILL IT LEAD?” AND OF COURSE THEY

SAID “NIRVANA, MAN!” AND THEY ALL LAUGHED.

AND I COULDN’T STOP MYSELF FROM SAYING

BOLDLY, “YOU GUYS ARE SO UNCOOL! YOU

ACTUALLY WANT ME TO GO GET SOME S.T.I. OR

SOME BUFFET OF S.T.I.S AND THEN WHAT?

WHO’S GOING TO PAY FOR MY DOCTOR’S BILLS

TO SOLVE THE PROBLEMS THAT COME WITH IT?

WHO? YOU J. T.? OR YOU C. J.?

WHO’S GOING TO COMPENSATE ME FOR ANY

SICK DAYS I HAVE TO TAKE AWAY FROM WORK IN

MY FUTURE CAREER THAT COSTS ME MONEY –

MAYBE EVEN MY JOB – TEN OR TWENTY YEARS

FROM NOW AFTER I HAVE SEX WITH HER? YOU

D. B.? ARE YOU GOING TO PAY FOR WHAT

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HAPPENS TO ME IF I FOLLOW YOUR FOOL, PEER

PRESSURE ADVICE? NO! I WILL HAVE TO PAY FOR

IT AND NONE OF YOU GUYS WILL EVEN BE

AROUND WHEN MY SUFFERING STARTS – LIKELY

BEGINNING IN JUST A MATTER OF DAYS FROM

DOING IT.

AND I HAVEN'T EVEN MENTIONED THE POTENTIAL

LOSS OF MY SOUL FOR DOING IT BEFORE

MARRIAGE, IN CASE ANY HERE BELIEVE IN

GOD...AND, BY THE WAY, I DO.

AND WHAT ABOUT HER? WHAT ABOUT HER SOUL

AND SALVATION? WHAT ABOUT HER FUTURE? ARE

YOU EVEN THINKING ABOUT WHAT HAPPENS IF

ONE OF YOU IDIOTS PUSHES SOME GUY TO HAVE

SEX WITH HER, TO USE HER AND THEN WHAT

HAPPENS IF SHE GETS PREGNANT? HUH? WHAT

HAPPENS?

ARE ONE OF YOU GUYS GOING TO BE AROUND TO

HELP HER DEAL WITH THE CONSEQUENCES OF

YOUR PARTICIPATION SINCE YOU PUSHED

SOMEONE TO DO THAT TO HER? ARE ANY OF YOU

GOING TO PAY FOR HER CHILD CARE OR

BABYSITTERS OR RENT FOR HER HOUSE IF SHE

CHOOSES TO KEEP THE CHILD OF YOUR PEER

PRESSURE STUPIDITY? NO. YOU’LL ALL FLEE LIKE

COWARDS AND SAY SHE DESERVES IT WHEN, IN

FACT, YOU GUYS DESERVE TO BE CHARGED WITH

PARTICIPATION IN A CRIME.

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WHAT CRIME? THE CRIME OF PERPETUATING

POTENTIALLY FATAL SEXUALLY TRANSMITTED

INFECTIONS AND PERPETUATING THE POVERTY

CYCLE HERE IN AMERICA BECAUSE OVER 90% OF

TEEN GIRLS THAT GET PREGNANT AND CHOOSE TO

KEEP THEIR BABIES WILL END UP LIVING THEIR

ENTIRE LIVES IN POVERTY – BROKE, POOR,

HUNGRY AND VULNERABLE TO A WHOLE VARIETY

OF CRIMES YOU AND I MAY NEVER HAVE TO

WORRY ABOUT BECAUSE WE’RE GUYS AND WE’RE

PROBABLY GOING TO EARN MORE MONEY SINCE

WE PROBABLY WON’T EVER HAVE ANY CHILDREN

UNTIL AFTER WE’VE GRADUATED FROM COLLEGE

AND HAVE A GOOD JOB.

"SOME OF YOU KNOW WHAT HAPPENS WHEN A

GUY GETS A GIRL DRUNK AND SHE GETS

PREGNANT. SHE CAN BECOME AN ALCOHOLIC

AND LOSE CUSTODY OF HER CHILDREN WHEN THE

GOVERNMENT COMES AND TAKES HER CHILDREN

AWAY FROM HER AND PUTS THEM IN FOSTER

CARE SINCE SHE'S AN ADDICT AND THE FATHER

OF HER KIDS WAS IRRESPONSIBLE AND SELFISH

BY ABANDONING HER FINANCIALLY AND

EMOTIONALLY YEARS BEFORE SO IF SHE CAN'T

CARE FOR HER KIDS THEN TOTAL STRANGERS

HAVE TO.

“WHAT KIND OF STRANGERS? CHILD MOLESTERS

THAT TRICK ORGANIZATIONS INTO HIRING THEM

TO "CARE" FOR KIDS. OR DECEPTIVE STEP-DADS.

GUYS THAT WANT TO MARRY THE MOTHER OF

YOUR KIDS - NOT BECAUSE HE LOVES HER BUT

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BECAUSE HE WANTS EASY ACCESS TO ONE OR

MORE OF HER KIDS TO MOLEST. BUT HIS SMILES

AND CHARMS FOOL HER INTO MARRYING HIM.

"AS LONG AS HE CAN GET ALONE WITH HER KIDS

AWAY FROM HER THEN HE CAN DO WHAT HE

WANTS WITH THEM SEXUALLY. MAYBE SHE'S A

DEEP SLEEPER AT NIGHT OR HE MAKES SURE SHE

SLEEPS DEEPLY OR HE "WORKS" FROM HOME

WHILE SHE WORKS AWAY FROM HOME DURING

THE DAY THEN HE CAN FULFILL HIS DARK DESIRES

WHILE SHE JUST BELIEVES HE'S SOME GREAT GUY

FOR MARRYING HER AND PUTTING A SO-CALLED

END TO THE PROBLEMS OF HER BEING A SINGLE

MOM.

“BUT HE'LL NEVER ADMIT WHAT HE'S UP TO AND

HE'S PROBABLY THREATENED HER KIDS WITH

SOME EVIL TO KEEP THEM QUIET. NOW IF ANY OF

YOU HAVE ALREADY BEEN VICTIMS OF THIS, WHY

WOULD YOU WANT IT TO HAPPEN TO SOMEONE

ELSE? STATISTICS SHOW THAT NEARLY 99% OF

ALL CHILD MOLESTERS ARE MALE. WHY WOULD

YOU WANT TO PERPETUATE THAT CYCLE?

"AS LONG AS THERE'S NOT ENOUGH MONEY

EARNED FOR HER FAMILY THEN SHE HAS TO BE

AWAY FROM HOME. IF THE MOTHER,- THE

SAFEST, MOST TRUSTWORTHY ADULT FOR HER

KIDS TO BE WITH – MUST BE AWAY FROM HOME

THEN HER KIDS HAVE TO BE SENT TO DAYCARE

OR SOME OTHER PLACE WHERE HER CHILDREN

ARE AT RISK FOR VARIOUS KINDS OF ABUSE AND

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CERTAINLY SUFFER EMOTIONALLY FROM HAVING

TO BE AWAY FROM THE KIND OF EMOTIONAL

SECURITY THAT ONLY BEING AT HOME WITH MOM

BRINGS.

“I BELIEVE WE WILL ALL ONE DAY BE HELD

ACCOUNTABLE BEFORE GOD FOR EVERY ONE OF

OUR CHOICES. DON'T YOU THINK FOR ONE

MINUTE HE'S NOT GOING TO PUNISH THOSE THAT

FREELY CHOOSE TO CAUSE OTHERS TO SUFFER.

THERE MUST BE CONSEQUENCES FOR OUR

CHOICES. GOOD CONSEQUENCES OR REWARDS

FOR GOOD CHOICES AND NEGATIVE

CONSEQUENCES FOR OUR BAD CHOICES.

“WHAT WILL YOU DO IF YOU GET A GIRL

PREGNANT AND THEN ABANDON HER AND SHE

WANTS TO KEEP HER KIDS RATHER THAN PUTTING

THEM UP FOR ADOPTION TO A FAMILY WHERE

THEY EARN ENOUGH FOR THE MOTHER TO GIVE

THEM THE BEST CARE?

“HOW WILL YOU ANSWER THE QUESTION YOUR

KIDS ARE BOUND TO ASK YOU AFTER THIS LIFE,

QUESTIONS LIKE: 'WHY DID YOU MAKE ME STAY

WITH THOSE STRANGE MEN AT THAT DAYCARE OR

IN FOSTER CARE? DON'T YOU KNOW WHAT THEY

DID TO ME? I COULDN'T DEFEND MYSELF

BECAUSE THEY WERE SO MUCH STRONGER AND

BIGGER THAN ME. I COULD GET IN TROUBLE FOR

DISOBEYING AN ADULT. WHY DID YOU LEAVE ME

TO GO THROUGH SUCH SUFFERING?

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“WHY WOULD YOU LEAVE MOM POSSIBLY NO

OTHER CHOICE BUT TO LEAVE ME WITH

STRANGERS TO BE ABUSED BY THE SAME GUY(S)

FOR OVER FOUR YEARS? NO ONE SHOULD EVER

GET GONORRHEA OF THE THROAT - ESPECIALLY

NOT A SIX- YEAR- OLD OR EVEN A TEEN.'

“DO ANY OF YOU EVER THINK ABOUT THE

CONSEQUENCES OF YOUR ACTIONS UPON

OTHERS BEFORE YOU ACT? I CAN TELL THAT THE

ANSWER TO THAT IS ‘NO’ AND THAT IT’S ABOUT

TIME THAT YOU STARTED!”

I THREW DOWN MY TOWEL AND WALKED OUT. I

WAS SO DISGUSTED AND TICKED. I’VE GOT A

PITCHER OF ICE WATER THAT CARES MORE ABOUT

MY HAPPINESS AND HEALTH AND THE WELFARE OF

OTHERS MORE THAN THEY DO.

SOME GUYS ARE SO STUPID TO THINK THAT THEY

SUPPOSEDLY HAVE TO HAVE SEX JUST TO PROVE

SOMETHING TO OTHER GUYS – LIKE “YOU MUST

BE GAY IF YOU’RE A STILL A VIRGIN” OR “YOU’RE

NOT A REAL MAN IF YOU HAVEN’T HAD SEX YET.”

THEY DON’T EVEN REALIZE THAT WHAT THEY’RE

REALLY SAYING IS THAT ONLY GUYS WITH S.T.I.S

AND ABANDONED EX-GIRLFRIENDS WHO HAVE

GIVEN BIRTH TO THEIR EQUALLY ABANDONED

CHILDREN ARE “REAL MEN.” WHAT A SCREWED UP

DEFINITION OF WHAT IT MEANS TO BE A MAN.

THAT’S NOT WHAT A “REAL” MAN IS.

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DON’T ANY OF THESE GUYS HAVE DECENT GOD-

LOVING FATHERS TO SHOW THEM THAT BEING A

MAN MEANS TAKING RESPONSIBILITY AND BEING

CARING ENOUGH NOT TO PUT OTHERS INTO

DIFFICULT POSITIONS TO BEGIN WITH? AND I’D

SAY THAT TEEN PREGNANCY AND S.T.I.S ARE

DIFFICULT POSITIONS TO BE IN LIFE WHEN YOU’VE

MADE WRONG CHOICES.

ONE GUY SAID A GIRL HE WAS PUSHING FOR SEX

FINALLY TOLD HIM SHE WAS NOT ON BIRTH

CONTROL. HE DUMPED HER AFTER THAT.

I SAY GOOD FOR HER. SHE DIDN'T WANT TO HAVE

SEX WITH HIM. THE FACT THAT SHE DIDN'T HAVE

THE PHYSICAL PROBLEMS THAT COME FROM

TAKING BIRTH CONTROL NOR THE FINANCIAL

HASSLE OF IT ALL SAYS TO ME THAT SHE MADE A

GOOD CHOICE.

IT DOESN'T MAKE SENSE FOR A GIRL TO TAKE

BIRTH CONTROL WHEN YOU'RE COMMITTED TO

NOT HAVING SEX BEFORE MARRIAGE. SHE GETS

TO AVOID SO MANY PROBLEMS WITH HER

WISDOM. THAT WAS COOL FOR ME TO HEAR.

WELL, I SUPPOSE THAT’S ENOUGH LECTURING

ABOUT WHAT YOU ALREADY KNOW REGARDING

THE CLEAR DEFICIT IN THE INTELLIGENCE POINTS

OF AVERAGE MALE TEENS – HOPEFULLY WITH THE

EXCEPTION OF YOURS TRULY HERE.

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SO ANYHOO . . . I GUESS YOU’VE NEVER SEEN

THAT SIDE OF ME. I’M FAIRLY PROTECTIVE OF

WOMEN AND I BELIEVE THEY DESERVE MORE

RESPECT THAN THEY GET FROM GUYS (AND EVEN

SOMETIMES FROM ONE ANOTHER). BUT SINCE

THAT TENDENCY TO STAND FOR WHAT’S RIGHT

REGARDING PEER PRESSURE AND SEX IS A TRAIT

THAT I FEEL IS GOOD TO HAVE, DON’T EXPECT ME

TO CHANGE OR LEAVE IT ANYTIME SOON

BECAUSE THAT’S JUST WHO I AM.

TAKE ME OR LEAVE ME BUT ON THAT SUBJECT I

WON’T BE CHANGING HOPEFULLY EVER (UNLESS

IT’S SOMEHOW FOR THE BETTER).

IT’S A GOOD THING YOU DON’T SPEND MUCH

TIME IN MALE LOCKER ROOMS. YOU’D PROBABLY

THROW UP TO KNOW JUST HOW PERVERTED

SOME GUYS CAN BE ABOUT THE SUBJECT OF

SEX.

YOU HALF-JOKED ABOUT WANTING TO VISIT AN

EMPTY MALE RESTROOM TO GET DIRT SAMPLES,

BUT IF YOU EVER WANT TO ENTER A MALE LOCKER

ROOM – EVEN AN EMPTY ONE – I HIGHLY

RECOMMEND THAT YOU WEAR A BIOHAZARD SUIT

TO PROTECT YOU FROM . . . A LOT OF SCARY

STUFF. (I’M ONLY HALF-JOKING ABOUT THAT.)

WELL, I’M GLAD YOU SEEMED TO HAVE ENJOYED

YOUR CHRISTMAS HOLIDAY. AND OVERALL, EVEN

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THOUGH I REALLY MISSED YOU, MY CHRISTMAS

BREAK WAS GREAT!

HAVE A GREAT DAY!

LATER!

ME

P.S. I GUESS THERE’S NO AVOIDING THE

INEVITABLE QUESTION: WHAT KIND OF

HOMEMADE COOKIES DO YOU WANT?

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[6th anonymous note put in your locker.]

January 14

You looked at me in the hall recently and it’s

almost as if you knew who I really am. You

looked, it seemed, for a long time. Or maybe you

were actually looking at someone else.

Whatever was happening at that moment you

had me absolutely paralyzed in a delirious high

for a few moments that seemed to last an

eternity.

You could have walked right up to me and asked

me flat out, “Is it you?” and I wouldn’t have been

able to stop myself from confessing everything.

I would have said, “Yes. I’m the one that’s

leaving you love letters in your locker. Yes. I am

your Secret Admirer.” But that’s not what

happened. And thank goodness too because

shortly after I would have confessed would have

been about the time I would have subsequently

passed out from a sudden heart attack of utter

happiness to be so close to you and have you

know the truth with the hope – even if it’s a slim

hope – that you would want me as much as I

want you.

Maybe it would be a good idea for you to bring

EMT paddles for CPR with you everywhere you

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go in case you ever do approach me and ask

me the question I’m too afraid to answer today

and nearly every day.

But until then, I remain in the hidden prison of

my heart often dreaming of you.

Love,

Your Secret Admirer

…Roaring out power greater than a stormy

ocean out of control…

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[7th anonymous note put in your locker.]

January 21

Title: “No Place Better”

There is no place better to be than here with you

It brings a feeling better than Christmas

I’ve seen some of the most extravagant places

around the world

I’ve seen some of the most spectacular views

But there’s no better view than seeing you

It’s better than the finest art any great artist

could make

There is no place better to be than here with you

It brings a feeling better than the best birthday

I’ve heard some of the finest music the world

has ever known

I’ve tasted some of the finest drinks from the

purest vines

But there’s no better sound than your voice in

my ears

And I bet that the taste of your kiss is better than

anything else on earth

There is no place better to be than here with you

It brings a feeling better than the greatest roller

coaster high

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I’ve read some of the most renowned books by

the best scholars

I’ve learned some of the most advanced lessons

from the finest minds

But second only to God Himself there’s no better

source of inspiration than you

You inspire me to be better than I’ve ever been

And better than I am now

There is no place better to be than here with you

You send me to the highest heights

You place me on top of the world

You’re better than any drug the doctor could

order

You bring a feeling that lights up the room

You bring a feeling that makes the night come

alive

You bring a feeling that it’s just me and you in

this heavenly place here on earth

You bring it

You bring it

There is no place better to be than here with you

Here in heaven

Right here on earth

Bring it.

Love,

Your Secret Admirer

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JANUARY 28

YOU:

LOOKS LIKE IT’S BEEN AWHILE SINCE I’VE GOTTEN

YOU ANOTHER AMAZINGLY BORING NOTE.

CLASSES AND HOMEWORK HAVE TAKEN OVER

MUCH OF MY LIFE LATELY. BUT NEVER FEAR!

ANOTHER NOTE IS HERE!

SO HOW ARE YOU? ARE YOU HAPPY? ARE YOU

SAD? ARE YOU GLAD WHEN I’M NOT MAKING YOU

MAD? (YEAH, THAT LAST ONE WAS A TRICK

QUESTION. KIND OF LIKE THE TRICK QUESTION IN

THE POP QUIZ OF MY LAST CLASS. AAARGH!)

WELL, YOU CERTAINLY SEEM TO BE IN ESPECIALLY

GOOD SPIRITS THESE DAYS. I THINK YOUR OUT-

OF-THE-BLUE HUG FOR ME KIND OF GAVE IT AWAY

THAT YOU’RE HAPPY OVER SOMETHING. PERHAPS

YOU COULD CLUE ME IN ON THE GOOD NEWS OF

YOUR LIFE.

DID YOU WIN THE LOTTERY AND SO NOW YOU’RE

GOING TO BUY ME A CAR – ONE THAT JUST

HAPPENS TO BEAR A STRONG RESEMBLANCE TO

THE ONE IN MY CHRISTMAS CONTEST PICTURE?

OR ARE YOU GOING TO BUY ME A BUNCH OF

MANGO DELIGHT FRUIT CAKE? OR ARE YOU

THINKING OF PRANKING ME BY BUYING THAT

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PICTURE THAT I STILL THINK ISN’T A GIFT BUT IS

REALLY AN INVESTMENT? (WELL, OKAY. . . IF YOU

INSIST!)

OR IS IT SOMETHING ELSE? I WOULDN’T THINK

STRAIGHT A'S WOULD GET YOU TOO EXCITED

SINCE I THINK YOU GET THOSE ALREADY IN YOUR

SLEEP SO IT MUST BE SOMETHING ELSE. LET’S

SEE... IS IT... A NEW PAIR OF WRESTLING SHOES?

NO. THAT COULDN’T BE IT BECAUSE YOU DON’T

WRESTLE. SILLY ME.

MAYBE IT’S PROFESSIONAL TENNIS LESSONS!

YOU LOVE TO WATCH PRO TENNIS. MAYBE

THAT’S IT? NO. THAT’S PROBABLY NOT IT.

OH, WAIT... I LOVE PRO TENNIS. NOT YOU. (NOTE

TO SELF: SHE’S NOT THE PRO TENNIS LOVER.

YOU ARE.) OH! I’VE GOT IT! YOU’RE BUYING ME

PRO TENNIS LESSONS! YES! YES! NO.

OKAY. I’LL TRY AGAIN.

OOOOOH... YEAH... MAYBE IT’S SOMETHING

LIKE... YOU’RE IN LOVE?

IF THAT’S IT THEN YOU MUST TELL ME!

WAIT... WHAT IF IT’S A GUY THAT’S NO GOOD

FOR YOU? WHAT IF HE’S SOME JERK THAT I

KNOW FROM GYM CLASS? WHAT IF HE’S A TOTAL

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STRANGER THAT YOU MET ONLINE THAT’S A

TOTAL LIAR THAT’S ONE OF THOSE PSYCHO

KILLERS THAT STALKS AND TARGETS GIRLS OVER

THE INTERNET AND HE JUST HASN’T BEEN CAUGHT

YET? STAY AWAY FROM GUYS ONLINE THAT

APPROACH YOU CLAIMING THEY’RE IN LOVE WITH

YOU! WARNING! STRANGER DANGER! (I’M

COMPLETELY SERIOUS ABOUT THAT. DON’T EVEN

THINK ABOUT IT.)

OR WHAT IF IT’S A GUY THAT I KNOW? ONE OF

MY GOOD FRIENDS? SOMEONE GOOD ENOUGH

TO DESERVE YOU?

MAYBE I DON’T WANT TO KNOW AFTER ALL.

BUT DON’T LET THAT STOP YOU FROM HUGGING

ME. I STILL WANT THE HUGS! (I THINK.)

LATER!

ME

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