Are you physically ill?
I have been ill for a very long time and could die of cancer/heart attack/tumour at any time. I'm really just waiting for it to happen and will be pleased when it's all finally over. If only I had been well enough to contribute to other's welfare and fulfill my life's true potential.
Every one of the life scenarios that is mentioned all carries with it massive guilt for the individual. “I'm useless just living in a park/on the streets drinking/shooting up all day. But I was raped by my father.”
“I'm responsible for my child's death. If only I hadn't accidentally murdered my girlfriend in a wild fit of rage. My temper should be more under control.”
“I should have visited my mother more often and checked on her.”“If only my teenager had told me about the problem they were having. I could have stopped their suicide. But I didn't know.”
“I wish I wasn't dying of cancer and could see my children grow up. But I can't and they just have to learn to get along without me.”